[Nill hadn't entirely meant to hurt Yosuke with the comment (she likes to think she hadn't, but she probably had, because sometimes he needs someone to punch him and she doesn't have it in her to do it most of the time, didn't back then either), but it's still a little nicer to listen to his reaction than her own thoughts. Her own thoughts are just full of sadness; nothing she wants to deal with right now, let alone ever.
Yosuke never seems to understand that Nill is a terrible person, and maybe he needs to learn that some day. ...Just not today.]
Does it matter how it happened?
[She shudders, and there are tears running down her cheeks. She's never understood the idea of honor. Honor didn't keep you alive. Honor didn't save you from terrible situations.
Honor, frankly, was shit.]
He's gone.
[Maybe he was dead - and for them, that would be the best thing that could happen. Maybe he just didn't exist anymore, and nothing could ever hurt him again. Or, maybe he's still out there somewhere, trapped in some new hell. She doesn't know, has no way of knowing, but anyone that thinks he just "went home" is an idiot.
It didn't matter though, because even if he didn't exist, even if he didn't have to hurt ever again, even if he got the best ending-- he still wasn't there with her, and he never would be again.
It's fine if Yosuke is a fence, though. She doesn't need him to be as strong as a wall, wouldn't even expect that of him. She just-- needs him to stay there, so she can wrap her arms around him and sob against him.]
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Yosuke never seems to understand that Nill is a terrible person, and maybe he needs to learn that some day. ...Just not today.]
Does it matter how it happened?
[She shudders, and there are tears running down her cheeks. She's never understood the idea of honor. Honor didn't keep you alive. Honor didn't save you from terrible situations.
Honor, frankly, was shit.]
He's gone.
[Maybe he was dead - and for them, that would be the best thing that could happen. Maybe he just didn't exist anymore, and nothing could ever hurt him again. Or, maybe he's still out there somewhere, trapped in some new hell. She doesn't know, has no way of knowing, but anyone that thinks he just "went home" is an idiot.
It didn't matter though, because even if he didn't exist, even if he didn't have to hurt ever again, even if he got the best ending-- he still wasn't there with her, and he never would be again.
It's fine if Yosuke is a fence, though. She doesn't need him to be as strong as a wall, wouldn't even expect that of him. She just-- needs him to stay there, so she can wrap her arms around him and sob against him.]
He promised me, and now he's gone.