[She doesn't look up at him at all, doesn't even acknowledge that he's said anything. She just stays where she is, curled up on the floor. No, no, why is she so important that he'd do that, that he'd learn to use a gun? Why? He shouldn't care about her that much, not enough to drive him to kill, she was just some mute little side character, she was nothing-- not a sound, not a whisper, certainly not a song. Not something for him to kill someone over. He shouldn't do that, not now or ever. Maybe if it was for himself, or for Shika, but not her, please, don't become someone like that because of her--
Why doesn't he understand? Why doesn't anyone understand? All Nill wants to do is to go home. She just wants to wake up in her old bed and for everything to have been a dream, to go back to blissful ignorance and never have to worry about anything ever again.
No. Wrong. She wishes she was nothing. They never should have brought her back, when they killed her she should have just stayed dead. Why had they ever brought her back? They shouldn't have, you should never bring people back, they were never the same and they always brought you back wrong-- they brought you back and you were nothing, except you still had to be something and she didn't know how to be that something anymore.]
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Why doesn't he understand? Why doesn't anyone understand? All Nill wants to do is to go home. She just wants to wake up in her old bed and for everything to have been a dream, to go back to blissful ignorance and never have to worry about anything ever again.
No. Wrong. She wishes she was nothing. They never should have brought her back, when they killed her she should have just stayed dead. Why had they ever brought her back? They shouldn't have, you should never bring people back, they were never the same and they always brought you back wrong-- they brought you back and you were nothing, except you still had to be something and she didn't know how to be that something anymore.]
you can't you can't you can't
[Repeating that, over and over again.]