[Nill would never let him figure out just how sad she is. How miserable. Lately it's started to turn to anger, which has at least given her something to help push her forward when before there was next to nothing, and that will get her by for a long while yet. Not long enough, but for awhile.
...If Nill can keep him anchored, though-- just make sure he has something he can hold onto when there's nothing else, then it's enough. She'll make it last for as long as Yosuke is there. She holds a little more tightly to his hand, even if it might hurt, and lets the doctors do their thing. But when she looks at him, she doesn't look away this time.
Something deep in her gut wants to spit bile and hatred at the doctor, though, even though she knows it's for the best. She knows, and yet for a moment she's so unimaginably angry that she can feel it in her toes, her finger tips. For an instant, and the first time in her life, Nill hates everything for letting this happen to Yosuke. Maybe even a little more than she hates herself.
She shakes her head in response to the nurse, and waves her hand away so that Nill can hug Yosuke now that he's calmed down a little, even if it was just because of the drugs. No. not the abduction. But Nill doesn't feel like paying enough attention to the nurse to answer her properly, when Yosuke is so much more important.]
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...If Nill can keep him anchored, though-- just make sure he has something he can hold onto when there's nothing else, then it's enough. She'll make it last for as long as Yosuke is there. She holds a little more tightly to his hand, even if it might hurt, and lets the doctors do their thing. But when she looks at him, she doesn't look away this time.
Something deep in her gut wants to spit bile and hatred at the doctor, though, even though she knows it's for the best. She knows, and yet for a moment she's so unimaginably angry that she can feel it in her toes, her finger tips. For an instant, and the first time in her life, Nill hates everything for letting this happen to Yosuke. Maybe even a little more than she hates herself.
She shakes her head in response to the nurse, and waves her hand away so that Nill can hug Yosuke now that he's calmed down a little, even if it was just because of the drugs. No. not the abduction. But Nill doesn't feel like paying enough attention to the nurse to answer her properly, when Yosuke is so much more important.]