reassures | SIRENSPULL

[...oh. She'd been hoping he wouldn't see all that.]

I'm fine.

How are you feeling?

When did the train hit me?

Not that long ago. Has-- anyone been by to see you yet?

'M not sure. I was asleep.

[Yes, for 3 days. Ow.]

[...He'd really called her that soon..?]

oh

[You bet he did. Though actually maybe he should have peed first, ugh.]

Mm don't worry. 'S not like jail. People'll come to a hospital.

They'd better.

[After all that hassle, after healing her, she is going to kick Souji's ass if he doesn't go visit Yosuke. Or maybe shoot him. Whatever.]

Are-- you feeling up to having visitors?

You gonna come see me?

[Man, that perks him up! Too bad he's totally out of it on pain meds.]

Good. Yeah. I won' try'a kiss you. Just pet your wings'n be nice t' you like you're always nice to me. You can...you c'n have the pudding. Okay?

Yeah.

[gkjdhakjh must he mention that... ugh, it takes her a second to say anything else. She's been trying so hard not to think about it, and then this pretty much got it out of her head, but now...

wait why does he want to pet her wings. oh my god Yosuke.]

It's okay-- I'm not hungry. I'll be there soon, okay?

[Nill, stop being made out of sunshine and feathers and milk custard if you don't want people to touch you...but never fear, he's not as capable of invading her personal space at the moment as he usually is. But he is pretty thrilled that she'll come brighten his surroundings a bit for a while.]

I'll be here.

See you soon.

[It won't be long at all, either. She leaves immediately, blah blah blah. The thing that really takes the most time is figuring out from the staff where he is, and even that doesn't take long. She peeks in the room before she enters to make sure it's the right one, and when she sees that it is she goes right in and takes the free seat by his bed.]

[He's half out of it again already, eyes glazed thickly with drugs, pupils wide and confused. But they spark with recognition when he sees Nill, and he attempts to sit up before he remembers he's not supposed to do that yet. Ow. He hisses softly, and fumbles on a curse, but still manages to offer Nill a warm smile.]

I'm glad you came.

[She's not very surprised. A small smile tugs at her lips, and she gestures for him to just relax, although she doesn't push him down. She doesn't want to touch something she shouldn't and hurt him by mistake.]

I missed you. Have the nurses been alright?

[It sends a little thrill through him to hear those words, and his heart does a funny leap in his chest. It turns up on the monitor, and gets a small frown from a passing nurse, until she sees Nill. Then the concern becomes an amused eyeroll, and a nod.]

They're alright. They bring tea for my throat. I hurt it when I was-

[Screaming. But Nill definitely doesn't need to hear that. Unfortunately, he blanks completely when he tries to think of a lie. His brain, usually so quick Nill finds it hard to keep up with, is sluggish and confused at the moment. All he can do is stare blankly, and hope she changes the subject.]

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[ffff. Just the fact that the nurse is amused by it makes Nill's cheeks go pink, and her feathers ruffle a little. But Nill is forever merciful about situations like this, and she's quick to skip over that thought. It was probably the worst experience of his life, and she doubted he wanted to think about it.]

Is the tea here alright?

[She couldn't really taste it when she was in the hospital... either that or it didn't taste like anything. She couldn't tell at the time.]

No, it's shit. I'll have to come drink some of yours when I'm better to get the taste out of my mouth. But it's the thought that counts, right?

[He's a little distracted now, still trying to push down those memories. He's not ready to deal with them yet. He needs to pretend for a little while longer that none of it actually happened.

He's so distracted that he doesn't notice the nurse at all, or even get a kick out of ruffling Nill's feathers the way he normally would. He tries to reach for Nill, just for something steady and soothing to hold onto, but he can't. His fingers twitch a little, but his arm doesn't move at all. And even that little twitch hurts. He gasps softly, and hopes his eyes aren't shimmering the way it feels like they are.]

Maybe you can bring me one from work some time. Those ones are good, too.

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I guess it is. But if you're here for very long, I can just bring you some of mine.

[Her expression falls the slightest bit as she watches him, though. She should have prevented this. She should have kept him safe, not let this happen-- he was never, ever supposed to be dragged into this side of the world, and now he'd never get out. Nill just kept failing to protect him.

She pauses, just for a moment, before reaching out and very carefully putting her hand over his. She doesn't want to hurt him, but well... she had the chance to do the reaching this time.]

No way, I'm not staying here long at all. Shika's gonna spring me.

[The smile sticks when Nill touches his hand. Goofy and doped up and a little pained, but mostly just thankful to have her there. Safe and sound and within theoretical reach, if he could just get his body to cooperate again.]

[She's never been the one to close the distance before. Even if it happens to be in response to an unusually pathetic display even by his standards, it still counts. She's still right here for him, just when he needs her. It's more than he can express, so he just pushes the feeling in her direction. Like his ribs are full of thick, warm fluid. Like a lung cavity of aching, wonderful mucus or something. Like if he took a deep breath he'd just burst and spill guys everywhere. Except that he can't, that's what the oxygen tubes are for. But anyway, it's a good feeling. The best feeling. ]

[Pfft. Of course it'd be Shika. He never could say no if Yosuke was the one doing the asking.]

Is that a good idea?

[Though... her cheeks go just a little bit redder, and she closes her eyes for a moment. She should be worried about this - but mostly, it just strikes her how nice a feeling it is, and how good it makes her feel. Like maybe there's something decent left in the world, tucked away in Yosuke's chest. If Nill were less composed, it would probably make her cry. It's just that nice.

She has to keep herself from letting her eyes water up when she realizes that her senpai never once felt anything even slightly like this when she was around.]

...thank you.

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No, it's...you.

[His thoughts are too hazy to make sense of. His brain might as well be full of cotton batting and pudding, because that's exactly how it feels. But he knows that he's never had that feeling to share with anyone until he met Nill. Something sort of like it for Souji, and Shika. But not the same. Not as big and bursty. Everything hurts right now, even through the morphine haze. His whole body is screaming, except for that part. Whatever lives in his middle and swells up at seeing Nill feels as good as ever. She's better than the drugs...except he probably shouldn't tell her that. He hopes he didn't just tell her that.]

Is it okay if we dim the lights? There's a lamp...my head kind of...I must have bumped it.

[...So all of that really was because of her? And is that how it's supposed to feel for other people?

It almost feels the way that laughter feels in her chest. It's the only thing that Nill knows to compare it to, because she herself has never had a feeling like that before. She thinks it's a little different from before, too, but she's not sure how. Maybe it's the drugs.

She almost smiles though. Hah. If only she were better than drugs.]

Sure.

[...She seems reluctant to let go of his hand, but she does after a moment to try to figure out the lighting in here. She stands, goes over to the lamp, and turns that on. The overhead lights... Ah, there was a switch up there. She reaches above the bed to flick that off.]

Do you want the lamp moved at all?

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No, it's good. That's less...stabby.

[It's definitely a bit better. Though that has the unwanted effect of making him feel drowsy. Damn it, what if he accidentally falls asleep and Nill leaves? Or worse, what if she stays and he wakes up screaming like he did earlier? No, he definitely needs to stay awake. He's not going to let her waste a trip out here just to pass out on her anyway.]

Shika said Souji's okay. And you're both okay. How's everyone else who got involved? I couldn't reach Gil-San. He's usually...there. You know?

[...so the nightmares had already started? Was that really how he woke up after days of being asleep? She should have visited sooner. Maybe she could have helped-- but, she's hear now, at least. Nill takes her seat again, and leans forward a little.]

I know. I think he's fine, though. There were a few healers there, and no one died.

[None of them did, anyway.]

...I can try to make sure you have good dreams, if you'd like me to.

Hey, that's cheating. You can't just get in a guy's brain when he's all-

[Except the word for Yosuke's current condition escapes him, at the moment. He blinks, then rolls his eyes self-deprecatingly. Ow. Since when does rolling his eyes hurt? It makes him lightheaded too, and he has to close his eyes altogether for a moment to get the swaying feeling to stop.]

[He knows the part that Nill is leaving out, since he's already spoken to Shika. But just for now, it's easier to leave it at that and pretend its true. Nobody died, everything's fine. He'll heal up quickly and life will be exactly the same as before.]

If it's okay, can you ring the nurse? There's some lozenges over there, but I can't...uh. They're out of my reach, you know? They check on me a lot anyway, but there's a button by my hip. See it?

Sorry. I know it's unfair.

[The offer still stands though. Nill frowns slightly, and looks down at the button. She remembers it from when she was here, but..]

If you just need a lozenge, can't I get it?

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