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[reassures]

[Cue mechanical answering machine voice.]

"You have dialed the number for N-I-L-L. This person is unavailable. Please leave a message after the beep."

[...BEEP]

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[Yosuke groans quietly from where he is, pained and miserable and concerned. He scrambles backwards at Shika's approach, not wanting to fight. He can't even grasp what he sees in his head. The pain is physical somehow, but it's so much worse than that. The room spins a bit, either from Nill and her inner screaming or from the sucker punch to the gut those memories -holy shit, that's what they were isn't it? Memories oh shit- Oh, shit.]

[He doesn't know how his back got pressed to the wall, or how his hand got pressed to his mouth, but Nill is far away suddenly. He can't decide if he's making it better or worse, but he's trying too hard to keep his own rising panic down. Shadow or not, that was...true. Even now, it's true. Yosuke closes his eyes, trying not to move or breathe until he can-until he can just think. Nill needs them not to panic. He makes a quiet, nauseated sound in the back of his throat, but he crawls closer again, ready to help.]

She's thinking-remembering-about him. I mean me. Him. The-his shadow. He...shit.

[reassures]

[Nill lets out a shuddering sob when the memory ends. She's about to start calling for Shika again, maybe he couldn't hear her, maybe he was too far away, maybe he wouldn't come-- but as soon as she thinks that she can hear properly, and it's obviously not Yosuke that she's hearing, he'd be too distracted. Nill lifts her head, fingers uncurling slightly from her scalp. Her cheeks are covered in tear tracks, and they have yet to stop.]

I'm sorry I tried but it didn't help nothing helped I made it worse I'm sorry

[She hiccups miserably, and it's only because she's trying to talk to Shika that she isn't showing anything she shouldn't. Lines of text are probably floating in the background with the new introduction of Shika to the mix, what little that's being shown takes a turn; bits and pieces of hard to decipher text, obviously from a conversation between him and Nill. They should both be experiencing that, and Yosuke can probably hear her as Nill talks to Shika, too.]

I wanted him to be safe and happy but I messed up and now he's scared and miserable and it was all for nothing no matter what I try nothing is ever okay

[Nill's fingers curl in her hair again, but the multitasking with her head makes her seem only half there or so physically. Despite that, she reaches a hand out towards Shika, though she doesn't grab him. He has to leave, right? Right.]

Everything is full of this terrible blackness and it won't let us out anymore and it's going to get him too

[And as she says that, words appear as if on a screen. Just the slightest snippet of a conversation.

"it'll be over for us too

eventually

soon maybe"

I know.]

Please I don't want to hurt him